Half of My Heart’s Got a Grip on the Situation
Oh man. Coming to realize that you have a measly 5 days left in a studio that you made a home in is heart breaking. Mostly because I have way too much stuff and not enough room, but it's like I'm losing a part of myself. Needless to say that I also move onto another chapter of my life, but it really is disturbing me. Graduation, yeah, I teared up. But now that I have to take my final resting home out of Biola, it's hitting me... I'm no longer a student. I'm getting older. How do I stop it? I really just wish I could go back into high school where things were easier. I'm turning into an adult, and now money is the key factor to my future. No pressure you know. I'm finally getting into the idea that I'm probably going to be a web designer by day, and a studio ceramist by night. In order for that to become a reality though, I need to buy a new program thats around $1000. SO I figure if I'm going to buy it, I might as well buy a new computer. BUT I'm kind of greedy in the sense that I want a desktop and a new laptop. (I'll take what I can get though) so figure in another $2500 for a desktop. THEN I probably need to invest in a new wardrobe. Professional looking clothes you know? So another $400 or so. and I really don't want to buy expensive clothes until I can work off the stress weight. SO thinking another $35 a month for a gym pass. AND I have no mode of transportation. so... tag on another $400 a month for that. SO basically I'm going to be at the good old Red Robin for another 2 years or so. Can you tell I'm slightly panicking? AHHHH. I'm praying. You should be too.
Anyway. I have been trying to finish out the rest of what I have in the way of clay. All 600lbs or so of it. SO hopefully my etsy.com shop will finally have something. BUT that's when I get my computer back... yep. My newer but not quite new computer is at apple care for the 3rd time in its life. I think I can only run a life-span of 2 years on a laptop before I need a new one. Right now I'm using the old Dinosaur (wow a whole 4.5 years lol) and it's so annoyingly slow. I can't wait to get newer one back.
Looking over what I have going on lately, I really have been going crazy. God has put somethings in my life that I need to rise to the occasion for but I'm just too scared to do, so I'll fall back into bad habits and not care. SO bad. So as I sit here, spilling my life out for all of you, I just really am kind of stunned. I just had this crazy show, with a great turnout, and great feedback. But now it's like 5 weeks later and I have been doing a lot of things... but nothing really impressive. I have a lot coming up within the next 2 months. Which will be exciting... but at the same time, draining. I feel like I'm going farther from what I want to be doing that I'm almost completely away from it. We'll see what the Lord blesses me with.
So for homework (For the both of us) catch up on some extra-curricular reading, and spend some time just listening.
Right now I'm in the middle of: The Creative Habit by Tywlia Tharp. And just starting: This year I will... and The artist's way.
I'll get some pictures up soon. And finish my web sites. I promise.
finals
My favorite is when you study or do homework for a class and then realize the prof omitted that AFTER you did the study time for it. Thanks prof for the free knowledge that I won't use... probably ever. I've just wasted 3 precious hours I could have used for something relevant to the coming 24 hours of my life... like your final.
Lists
I've been making a lot of lists lately. A L O T. Mainly thing needed, to do, daily goals, unrealistic goals. You see where I go. But I kind of want to make a fun list.
10 places to go once I graduate:
New York, Grand Canyon
San Francisco, Hawaii
Alaska, Australia
Paris, Italy
Japan, China
some what unrealistic, but fun.
Back to work.
6 weeks and counting
6 weeks till the big day. AHHHHH!!!! (no not a wedding... but my first solo senior show)
Ok so this is my sad attempt at blogging. I'm trying this out and I hope I like it and you like it. I've tried this before, but it got super melodramatic and pointless. ANYWHO. I'll update you on a few fun facts:
My skin hates me.
Yep.
I have a show. Dec 7th-11th. Its called:
steeped. a ceramic installation.
annnnnnd I got a super awesome internship with @Lorikoop http://www.lorikoop.com 
<3 Gretchen